I was sitting on the side of my bed, angry. Angry at myself for dealing with sin that shouldn't have had so much control over my life. Questioning why God was letting this thing handle me like I was a punk. And I was that dude, crying out to God, wanting it to be over for good.
So I did what I knew to do: I knew about asking for forgiveness all too well and doing what I thought was repentance. And then I heard the old hymn from my years of growing up in the United Methodist Church:
"I was sinking deep in sin, far from the peaceful shore. Very deeply stained within, sinking to rise no more. But the Master of the sea heard my despairing cry. From the waters lifted me, now safe am I."
So I started singing it right there, but I heard a different medley. I sang that verse over and over again, until--as the older saints would say--times got better. And I felt like it was something that needed to be developed. And for years, it was my song when I needed to remind myself that God loved me, in spite of me.
And almost six years later, "Your Love (Lifted Me)" is my first ever single. Outside of the fact this is a dream I've had since I was a little boy and have actually been trying to record a solo project for 13 years, this song has been a reminder to me that God's love is more than life. God loves way past your sin, your depression, your self-esteem. God's love makes it all worth it.
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